A free grief checklist for widows who are surviving, but still feel completely lost.

After Robert died, I didn't know what was happening to me.

I was functioning. Going to work. Responding to texts. Smiling when I was supposed to smile. But inside I was floating, completely untethered , and I didn't have a single word for what that felt like.

Nobody told me that was normal. Nobody told me there was a name for it. Nobody told me that eating the same salad every day, or texting my kids when I got home from the grocery store just so someone knew I was okay, or waking up every morning to that half-second before I remembered , nobody told me any of it was grief.

So I made this. Because you deserve to have it named.

These are 18 things nobody tells you about early grief, and what they actually mean. It's yours, free, right now.

Here's a glimpse of what's inside.

☐ I wake up every morning to that half-second , before I remember. And then I remember.

☐ Nobody knows where I am. I can come and go and not a single person knows if I'm home or out or okay.

☐ I text my kids when I get home. Just so someone knows I made it.

☐ Some days I feel almost okay. And then I feel guilty about it.

☐ I don't know who I am without him. I was a wife. And now I don't know what word describes me.

If even one of these felt true, this was made for you.